urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice have you had some juice today? Josh 2006-04-07T05:25:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:37157 2006-04-07T04:55:35Z 2006-04-07T05:25:51Z this morning just wasn't the same...<br /><br />it's been less than a full day, yet i already miss her quite terribly... i miss her hugs, i miss her touch... i miss her scent... most of all i miss her smile... <br /><br />and i just wish i could tell her that... it's been a struggle not to call... not to text... not to want to hear from her...<br /><br />at the moment though, this is for the best... and i want her to have only the best... and be happy...<br /><br />my eyes are so darn sore... :( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:37004 2005-12-29T11:20:09Z 2005-12-29T11:25:09Z just wanted to try out a few of those tests.. :P<br /><br /><table width="400" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"> <tr><td bgcolor="#66CCFF" align="center"><br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style="color:black; font-size: 14pt;"><br /><b>Your True Birth Month Is August</b></font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFFFFF"><br /><br /><center><br /><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/birthmonth/august.jpg"><br /></center><br /><br /><font color="#000000"><br /><br /><div align="center"><br />Sauve<br /><br />Romantic<br /><br />Attractive<br /><br />Observant<br /><br />Loves to joke <br /><br />Easily jealous<br /><br />Easily angered<br /><br />Learns to relax<br /><br />Loves to dream<br /><br />Thirsty for praise<br /><br />Loving and caring <br /><br />Brave and fearless <br /><br />Extraordinary spirit<br /><br />Careful and cautious<br /><br />Independent thoughts<br /><br />Angry when provoked <br /><br />Loves to make friends<br /><br />Sensitive but not petty<br /><br />Too generous and egoistic<br /><br />Takes high pride of oneself <br /><br />Loves to lead and to be led<br /><br />Thinks quickly and rationally<br /><br />Knows how to console others<br /><br />Poor resistance against illnesses<br /><br />Firm and has leadership qualities <br /><br />Talented in the arts, music and self defense</div><br /></font></td></tr></table><br /><br /><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/truebirthmonth/">What's Your True Birth Month?</a><br /></div><br /><br /><table width="400" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"> <tr><td bgcolor="#66CCFF" align="center"><br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style="color:black; font-size: 14pt;"><br /><b>You Are Milk Pocky</b></font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFFFFF"><br /><center><br /><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/milk-pocky.jpg"><br /></center><br /><font color="#000000"><br />Your attitude: caring and charming<br />Smooth and silkly... invigorating and natural.<br />You are like comfort food for the soul.<br /></font></td></tr></table><br /><br /><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/pockyquiz.html">What Flavor Pocky Are You?</a><br /></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:36068 2005-08-02T07:52:52Z 2005-08-02T07:55:16Z exodus - utada hikaru <i><b>"For the dreams and secrets of our heart may be spoken, but words are poor handmaidens. Words can never fully say what we want them to say, for they fumble, stammer, and break the best porcelain. The best one can hope for is to find along the way someone to share the path, content to walk in silence, for the heart communes best when it does not try to speak."</b> - Marshal Medan, from The War of the Souls: Dragons of the Lost Star, volume II, p. 374 </i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:33961 2005-07-30T12:10:04Z 2005-07-31T02:01:08Z the day you said goodnight - hale (yes, for the nth time) i think in one of my few public entries of recent memory, i wrote that in happier times, i feel less compelled to write about life and my state of being. <br /><br />true, because in happiness, i am placed in a state of satisfaction (albeit seemingly fleeting in contrast to moments such as these, as i have begun to realize once again as i look back and dwell, rather unfortunately, at the way life plays itself out). i am content. i therefore do not feel the need for such introspection and reflection. i would prefer, as i have learned should be preferred, to live in each and every moment that brings me such joy. i would prefer to relish the opportunity given to me (one that brings me far and away from pain and reminds me of what there is to be thankful about), to open my eyes and see what i have in front of me. i believe that you have to seize those moments when they come.. because life as we know it to be is never that predictable, never quite that stable, and never quite the dream that we so want it to be. those moments of happiness are often a big part of what we live for, of our purpose in life; the pursuit of happiness, true happiness mind you, is reason enough for most of us to maintain our state of existence in this worldly plane. one hopes that he/she is fortunate enough, if there is such a thing as fortune, to have come across enough happiness in his/her life to be able to call it complete, so that they may leave knowing that they have lived a full life, knowing that despite their trials, they have done well enough and wouldn't change a thing, so that they may move on in peace.<br /><br />of late, i have had someone very special come into my life and help sustain that feeling of satisfaction for great lengths of time. for that, i am lucky, and grateful (but not indebted, as that implies gratitude bore out of unequal, unshared acts; of deeds done out of service, in one-sided fashion.. or so i believe.. this has been borne out of love, of working towards mutual understanding and living by it, of sharing and enjoying one's company.. of support for the other.. of.. well.. you get the picture..).<br /><br />there are moments such as this one, however, that will inevitably threaten to break that state of being.. and leave me like this.. pondering.. questioning.. when things go.. well.. not wrong naman but not quite so right either, isn't that we tend to do more? we ask of what we do not know, of what we do not understand, of what we are found to be left wanting; unsatisfied once again and left stunned, and maybe even helpless.<br /><br />but now for the important bit: after this momentary (i so hope it is) lapse into self-contemplation, as i am wont to do so, where do i take myself from here? do i allow myself to be consumed by my so-called madness (my weird crazy self) and go into the depths of despair and self-pity and all that shit? or do i take a break, and once again hope.. believe.. that there will yet be another day that i get to smile.. that shgdfghdfhe wigsgsdgdgll bertrshdfh smkhhdhdhdiling wirhrhdnjgth mepajbagsd onhavagnspce agkanggdsoain.<br /><br />hmm.. i'll go for the latter. not sure how. but it sure beats the choice before it. now, if only i could stop writing. this is about my fifth entry, i believe, for today alone (why, the rest are private, of course. :D).<br /><br />does any of this even make any sense at all? feel free to engage in any discussion, although i would probably prefer not to have to at some point.. but hey, you're all free to air out any comments, suggestions or violent reactions nonetheless. this is public online space, after all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:33054 2005-07-30T05:26:37Z 2005-07-30T05:27:54Z kahit pa - hale i started reading this really thick novel yesterday. i think i'll go finish reading it. then it's off to work again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:31411 2005-06-25T17:40:45Z 2005-06-27T13:56:45Z it's like that - mariah carey ft. jermaine dupri my entries are getting shorter and shorter. and more private, too (less things for less people to read). i've gone from being overly contemplative and analytical (which people like me tend to become when things don't seem to go so well) to mostly enjoying life as it is.<br /><br />despite the fact that i no longer make Über-insightful entries, nor employ more words than necessary to stress certain points (of which i fell into prior to my return from leave of absence), i am very much content with my current state of being.<br /><br />i am happy..<br /><br />and when you are, you just smile.Ü urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:30108 2005-06-19T02:35:56Z 2005-06-19T02:41:25Z lean back - fat joe & terror squad waaah.. i can't get myself to shut up.. hehehehe..<br /><br />i'm just waiting for my fantasy football's livedraft to start in about 30 minutes.. football season is approaching na ulit!! woohoo!! ooh, and jenson button qualified 3rd for the indinapolis grand prix later.. yay! i just hope a BAR gets into the points this time around.. and kimi qualified 2nd while fernando alonso was 6th.. hmm.. baka si <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/galenalistova">cai</a> lang makakarelate sa akin dun ah.. hehe.. <br /><br />anyway, happy father's day!!<br /><br />we're going to go swimming daw this afternoon.. whoo.. pay.. half excited ako na hindi.. agh..<br /><br />anyway, have a wonderful sunday with your loved ones!Ü<br /><br />oh, does anyone know where i can get an <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/have_some_juice/27673.html"> angel costume</a>?? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:29798 2005-06-18T18:10:28Z 2005-06-19T04:09:41Z would you guys believe pala, i'm beadle-ing for my philo and theo classes. &gt;__&lt; i figured at least i won't be the last to find out about class announcements.. and it'll keep me more responsible.Ü urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:27673 2005-06-12T09:47:23Z 2005-06-12T10:01:53Z candy shop - 50 cent ft. olivia may mga naisip ako para sa creative pose ko sa yearbook..<br /><br />one, i dress up as an angel holding this book.. the title of the book? (bringing out) the (naughty) little devil in you.. hahaha.. the ones in the parentheses are optional.. and then maybe i'd be doing that "shh.." thing..<br /><br />two, i'll draw up a silly picture in a big illustration board, then i leave a slot open in it for my head.. so i can be anything from a monster trampling a city to a sun checking out all these people at the beach.. hahaha..<br /><br />stupid ideas.. i know.. hahaha.. i'm just a little bit bored right now.. :P sure beats the heck out of doing more advanced reading for school. &gt;__&lt;<br /><br />hmm.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:26958 2005-06-04T12:04:42Z 2005-06-19T02:42:02Z ÜÜÜ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:26154 2005-05-28T01:43:07Z 2005-06-19T02:42:30Z i lost my cell phone.. so i don't have a phone again.. :(<br /><br />sigh.<br /><br />i can't wait for next week though..ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:26005 2005-05-24T10:28:11Z 2005-05-24T10:28:11Z yeah - usher ft. ludacris despite all the stress from school and work, i seem to be getting happier by the day.ÜÜ<br /><br />hmm.. i wonder why. :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:25771 2005-05-23T08:34:31Z 2005-05-23T08:34:31Z i want to master flash and photoshop.. i wonder if i should take classes this coming sem or if i should just teach myself? hmm.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:25342 2005-05-17T16:03:40Z 2005-05-18T02:51:41Z i wish you love - lisa ono i need to give myself a break. no more writing muna, okay joshua?<br /><br />i love you all.<br /><br />sana'y magkita tayo muli. at sana'y maayos na ang lahat.<br /><br />ÜÜÜ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:23162 2005-05-15T08:23:20Z 2005-05-15T12:34:51Z i'm supposed to be doing my paper right now!!! agh!!<br /><br />but carlo was online.. and then he sent me this <a href="http://www.blogthings.com/mbtiquiz/">link</a>.. i just couldn't resist.. it's an abbreviated version of the myers-briggs type indicator, one of the more popular personality tests used to determine your personality type.. my results in it seem to be consistent with the full version naman.. here they are:<br /><br /><table style="font-family: serif; color: black; font-size: 11pt;" width="350" align="center" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="5"> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#CCE6FF"><br /><br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">Your #1 Match: INFP</h3><br /><br /></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#E5F3FF"><br />The Idealist<br /><br />You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.<br />Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.<br />It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.<br />But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.<br /><br />You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.</td></tr> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#FFCCCD"><br /><br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">Your #2 Match: INTP</h3><br /><br /></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFE5E6"><br />The Thinker<br /><br />You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.<br />Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.<br />Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.<br />A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.<br /><br />You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.</td></tr> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#FFFECC"><br /><br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">Your #3 Match: ENFP</h3><br /><br /></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFFEE5"><br />The Inspirer<br /><br />You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.<br />You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.<br />Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.<br />You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!<br /><br />You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.</td></tr> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#CCE6FF"><br /><br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">Your #4 Match: ISFP</h3><br /><br /></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#E5F3FF"><br />The Artist<br /><br />You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).<br />You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.<br />Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.<br />Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.<br /><br />You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.</td></tr> <tr><td align="center" bgcolor="#FFCCCD"><br /><br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">Your #5 Match: ENTP</h3><br /><br /></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFE5E6"><br />The Visionary<br /><br />You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.<br />You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.<br />Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.<br />You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.<br /><br />You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.</td></tr> </table><br /><br /><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/mbtiquiz/">What's Your Personality Type?</a><br /></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:22893 2005-05-14T16:29:17Z 2005-05-14T16:32:06Z sigh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:22703 2005-05-12T13:23:49Z 2005-05-12T13:48:20Z sorry - maria mena darn. i heard this really nice tagalog song on the radio on the way home from running some errands.. but i can't remember a single line from the song.. and they didn't say what the title of the song was pa.. or if they did, i wasn't listening then. sigh. i wish it was like one of those radios in the states where the name and song title scrolls sa lcd.. :P like an mp3 player ba.. oh well.<br /><br />basta girl yung kumakanta.. i just hope i hear it again soon.. :P<br /><br />anyway, i hope all of you are doing okay..<br /><br />...sigh... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:22405 2005-05-12T09:22:25Z 2005-05-12T09:26:28Z these days - bamboo gah.. it's so hot..<br /><br />tomorrow's going to be a busy day for me, so i'm taking a break while i still can.<br /><br />sigh.<br /><br />***<br /><br /><i>these days<br />i seem to find<br />a million reasons to sit around and waste my mind</i><br /><br />***<br /><br />nyarghsfhth. i want to go crazy. in a good way though. gotta keep going somehow.<br /><br />***<br /><br />Smile though your heart is aching<br />Smile even though it's breaking<br />When there are clouds in the sky<br />You'll get by<br />If you smile through your fear and sorrow<br />Smile and maybe tomorrow<br />You'll see the sun come shining through for you<br /><br />Light up your face with gladness<br />Hide every trace of sadness<br />Although a tear may be ever so near<br />That's the time you must keep on trying<br />Smile, what's the use of crying<br />You'll find that life is still worth while<br />If you just smile<br /><br />Just smile... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:22114 2005-05-10T16:16:47Z 2005-05-10T16:16:47Z i'm going to make you smile.<br /><br />that's my resolution, my plan of action for the entire week.. nay, the entire month.<br /><br />and i don't mean <i>you</i> as in just one person, i mean <i>you</i> as in just about everybody i come across. so remind me of my resolution when you see me, and maybe help me keep it by doing the same.<br /><br />you can never aim too high.Ü <br /><br />so there.. off to bed i go. good night world!Ü urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:21546 2005-05-08T17:27:02Z 2005-05-08T17:52:59Z some maybe less than random thoughts:<br /><br />i would be lying if i said i wasn't scared at all about what the future holds for me. but, i do continue to look forward to whatever each new day may bring, with less fear, less resignation, and less dissapointment than ever before. kaya 'to.<br />***<br />we musn't lose faith in other people, and more importantly, in ourselves.<br />***<br />i believe that things will work out.. for me, and for the people that i care about deeply.. but not without putting some effort into it.<br />***<br />i am proud of my best friend, for not giving up on life. i continue to pray for his healing.<br />***<br />stuck in my head:<br /><i>"..I don’t know the way you feel but boy I’m hoping<br />I always used to hide away, but now I’m open.."</i><br />***<br />words must translate into action. i can't just talk about it. i have to do it, show it, be it. therein lies my hope. <br />so.. kaya ko ba talaga 'to? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:21415 2005-05-08T06:06:48Z 2005-05-08T06:08:39Z nakakatuwa.. i'm making a playlist full of songs from high school..<br /><br />i remember coming home from soccer practice and theather rehearsals in a la salle jacket, chilling in the backseat of the crv listening to all these songs..<br /><br />here are some titles from the different genres:<br /><br />one week<br />walkin' on the sun<br />iris<br />i don't wanna miss a thing<br />semi-charmed life<br />push it<br />torn<br />closing time<br />time of your life<br />someday<br />someday we'll know<br />kiss me<br />say what you want<br />show me love<br />truly madly deeply<br />4 seasons of loneliness<br />i wanna know<br />incomplete<br />ghetto supastar<br />too close<br />breakdown<br />westside<br /><br />wala lang. :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:21128 2005-05-08T04:07:00Z 2005-05-08T05:45:20Z say what you want - texas legsegt's fasegssvace ifgrhergrt. argrll i regrgrggsrssdaally wegwwwayutrwfdant iyits tththsao hhtjryeahjear hestshher tshtrhthell ahhhahfme taahtthat sahjtrjrtahyhe lissjjshahskes maaahjtjajoe baaahjjjck. thasghehaagfgat's agaryerhdhdfll. anahaethethd iaaghrh'll bayrhjahjee haaaaahrahhhhhtahjjyippy wipfsgjaaaaath thaagrgat.<br /><br />buahgrhrht thraytjzen agasegegsbain, maaythjgjtybe istrjhahjahj'm juajtrjjst assrjtrjaehjking taajtrurasyoo mayyauch fraytahahom heauthjthr aahtujrat thaajujjsis posjtrsjsjint. asjtjtjll i casjtrsjtjn rejtrsjtjally dstaaaego itrs brhdtrhe pahjjgfjgfntient. ansjthshd contahthhfhinue besjkjtyksaing thsssskaaaaaaere fojtsjtjr hsstjtjer. shsjjjte's wosutsssssssssssshrth thsjtjshe washtjjit.<br /><br />i will. and i'll stop worrying about it now.Ü<br /><br />if any of you can decode that, good on you. it's really not that hard. why bother though? it's just a bunch of gibberish. :P<br /><br />ah well..<br /><br />i feel much better now.Ü urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:20738 2005-05-08T03:52:37Z 2005-05-08T03:52:37Z mjjgjfsffetfrusgjtrjtsrateeffd. pseoegffsgd. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:20523 2005-05-08T03:43:38Z 2005-05-08T03:48:17Z ........<br /><br />nyaurghschkkgrr..<br /><br />mgnfbndf? ophjrire nkghiggrr jrbguergr sbagjbughuaaaagrg!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:have_some_juice:20260 2005-05-07T09:40:52Z 2005-05-07T09:40:52Z i'm frustrated at my current inability to properly express in words my current state of being.